jungle life

i suddenly feel threatened by my status. being single is awesome, but sometimes people get predatory around me. my territory is mine to prowl, mine to control and mine to own. intruders are terribly unwanted, only welcomed guests.

having no strings attached is still an unfamiliar sensation that i'm adjusting to. i'm enjoying the adapting and change that comes with it. i don't need company for this leg in my life.

wheeee....thrill seekers!

fright night at thorpe park was fun despite freezing for three hours in the bloody queue to get on the nemesis. i should really go back again sometime. the rides are pretty dashyat especially when coupled with the whole halloween theme.

weather gets a lil temperamental

it snowed in london today.it's just the end of october, and snow flakes were gracefully falling, blanketing buildings in white. i could have pressed my nose against the glass window watching forever...too bad it fogs up.

the cheer it brings

deepavali wasn't as lonely or as bad as i thought it would be. instead it turned out to be full of delights and surprises. from boxes of indian sweets over a tamil movie to an unexpected temple trip. topping the day off with mango lassi, sambar vadai and chicken thosai...it was one like no other.i'm forever grateful for that little blessing of having great friends.

:D

festival of lights

with the deepavali greetings pouring in, a sense of longing has been invoked within me. for the first time in 18 years will i be away from home. and for the first time ever, there will be no open house at home. no friends and family filtering in through the front gates all day long to savour the delightful cookies, murukku and curries. no 'matappu' and firecrackers will be played on the road at night. no lounging in front of the tv watching tamil movies, song and dance. no house hopping and visiting friends. no rushing to the supermarket around the corner to stock up on ice cubes. no mixing the punch in the huge bowl. no baking a never ending batch of chocolate chip cookies. no mum and dad to get me out of bed in the morning for my oil bath. no opening the humongous hampers and tasting the cakes that always arrive. it will just be uni and classes for me.

a year ago, over drinks and chicken perattal, the boys told me to remember this. it was to be my last deepavali at home for the next few years to come. yes, i enjoyed every moment of it then. and every bit of all the celebrations that came before. but now, with these memories...i'm really missing everyone and everything familiar. can't wait to be home again.

deepavali vazhtukkal!~

let me introduce you to Freak.

it has become cumbersome to refer to the prank caller that keeps ringing my room as the he/she/stalker. so we have decided to give the person a name, Freak. Freak buzzes at all hours of the day in a sort of scary psychopathic manner. at 2, 3, 4 in the morning while i'm dozing off. and then i get wake up calls from 9 onwards. Doesn't Freak need to sleep? This is how the calls usually go. I answer, Freak hangs up, and then calls back....just to cut the line again (after i say "hello" that is). I have tried all sorts of things to ward Freak off. Hy has had a 2 minute one way conversation (i guess Freak is a pretty good listener), Sap has played nursery ryhmes on the dials, James has answered in his gruffest, most manly voice...but all to no avail. Freak is as determined and creepy as ever. Sometimes i wonder if it's a clock-in checkup on me to see if i'm in my room or not. And that thought simply FREAKS me out like hell. i have no idea who could be behind this. i have no clue if it's just random or if i have been singled out. if it's stalking, i'm sure you're reading this Freak. and this is what i think of you. you are a lifeless, spineless creature. one who doesn't even have the guts to say "hello" over a phone.

Kiasuness, in a whole different dimension. ;)

Anu: " Kiasu means always liking to be on top."
James: " What?! You mean like being on top of you?"

Hahah! And we laughed non stop. Don't you just love it when you have people like these around you?

p/s: point up! point up! that's the cue for tonight! :P


love, xoxo.
Diana.

jingle bells jingle bells

james&cheng say that christmas is not here untill these commercials start playing on tv...

spoilt for choice

i don't know if i should go to wales or nottingham games. if i go for the notts games, i don't know if i should play squash or pong. this is like lse or city all over again. yuck.

the little things i miss about college and the girls

the other end of the rainbow

it seems to stretch on forever, the vibrant colours ringing loud and clear. but sometimes, i seem to miss it's shimmering beauty. i just trudge on and on, on this never-ending colourful path.why, i don't know. what i'm searching for, i know. it's that illusive pot of gold that's supposed to be right at the very end. the one that holds all the riches and joys of the world. the fool's gold. i really hope it's no myth and i'm no fool.

there have been times when i have strayed, wandering off my little rainbow. i fell into the clouds, my moral fibres hanging by loose threads. but i have managed to clamber back on. as josephine says, some things will never be as spiffy as before. but who cares, i have found stability, reasoning and logic buried beneath the mayhem of my life. i think i have found myself. i know i'm standing on this little rainbow of mine.

the prank call

there's a redundant landline in my room.apart from my mum & dad, nobody ever buzzes me on it. i don't even know my own number. the phone rang last night which was really odd. i answered, silence...followed by the dead tone. then it rings again. a tad more interesting this time. Kevin little's turn me on was playing. Sap takes the phone to enjoy the entertainment while i get dressed for the night. suddenly, she starts pressing the dials on the phone in response. so random!

"i'm playing mary has a little lamb for this stranger. It's the only thing i can give back over the phone"

ooh-lala

no more sex on the beach for me. it's sex in the jungle from now on.

paradise in a glass, that's what i call an awesome cocktail.

MinistryOfsound

camwhoring on the tube

oh i just love family photos

the place reminded me of maisons, thats always jammed packed with taylors kids back home. not the best of memories. but all in all, it was an experience...a rave at MoS where our group totally stood out from the crowd. i have never seen so much energy. that night took pumping to a whole new level, with the non-stop dropping and shaking that booty.

our bundle of joy

we have been waiting expectantly. finally it arrived!!!

Hy and i crouched in the corner of the busy kitchen trying not to get into anyone's way (which was really quite impossible). Such excitement, to open the parcel and pull out jars and jars of cookies, murruku, pong bats, clothes and other odds and ends. deepavali comes early for me this time around. :D

Chengy turns 21

the upside down chocolate marshmallow cake and the gang

why i should go to the gym

"Your butt will become so small and tight you could crack a walnut."..Hanad

pong

one of the best investments my parents have ever made is the ping pong table at home. it's addictive. and a great social sport. it beats golf hands down, anytime.

when we have a touch pro

hy is going to kill me for this.oh no!

i want to break free

i am exhausted.and together with my energy, my mental sanity has been slowly sapping away. i have been functioning on a very short fuse today, and now it's almost burnt out. i'm on the verge of exploding, of breaking down, of losing control. i had a great day despite this. we did the usual london tour, camwhored a bunch, had spaghetti and lasagna gelati, yummy yummy chinatown food again (yes, i always find joy in eating). it was nice seeing the whole bunch of kyuem-ians again.

gelati delights

however, i refuse to be used. i don't want to be the scape goat. this game is too intricate, leave me out. i have no interest.

out in the open

what do you say when someone tells you, i used to like you. Alot...?

half expecting what he was about to say, i never thought of my response. That awkward giggle and silence followed by "oh". i'm sure i could have done better than that. i think i knew it all along, even all those years back. But what difference does it make, especially now. i still love him as dearly as before, my friend that came along so unexpectedly. He was so similiar to me, like a male twin who thought and functioned just like me. So much so, it scared me sometimes. The beautiful friendship that blossomed all through these short years has been a pleasure.

i'm glad that the conversation just continued ever so normally after that. Just as if we had finished discussing the weather.

faith calls...

it felt odd stepping into a building, to enter a temple. there was no soft breeze, no hot tar beneath my feet, and no glittery sky. and yet it felt so like home. a sense of familiarity and comfort. the feeling of content engulfed me, like always.

years put together

i have been so hard to crack for too long. the walls i have built around me just keeps getting higher and thicker. fear, yes. it's mere self protection. this is leading to a slow and scary emotional meltdown, as i stand alone enclosed. something so alien and foreign to me. it started years ago. when i saw vulnerability at it's peak. when i told myself never will that be me. i think i took it a step too far.

i want a bright spot. i need a haircut. i need retail therapy. i need sleep. i need a sweat out. i need to partyy. i need to live again. :D

i think i'm losing the will to write. the urge to snap photos.

the oriental way has reached far and wide.

we sat at a round table. in chinatown once again. i had to go back to Yung's for the hokkien mee. 6 of us were there.4 chinese, 1 indian and 1 greek. 4 malaysians, 1 singaporean. And only 2 out of the 6 could hold their chopstick the correct way. 1 chinese.....and the greek.

When the devils are let loose....

Freshers finale. Heaven&Hell.