the test of time

some things are priceless. it holds me captivated. when you see two people you love come together, despite their differenes, despite their rifts...just because of their friendship, it's beautiful. i thought this day would never come. you guys proved me wrong.

a whole year later, we talk. we find out what happened. i still wonder how we survived despite the lack of communication. yes i know you are a rock, a stone a boulder, emotionless, whatever you want to call it. that goes without saying. but when you opened up to me, it took me by surprise. a pleasant surprise, i'm glad that i finally get to know you. all the best to you and your dreams.

Take two

boleh tahan.ada bakat

Merdeka merdeka

haha.

his futile attempt at making me look model-like. i'm a very far cry.

i think tomorrow might just be my last trip down to kl before i fly.

buried alive

I'm digging my own grave. Deeper, deeper, deeper. I'm waiting to hit rock bottom, but i don't think it's there. It's getting too late...

Byebye

I can't believe he has left. oh no.

Kuantan, the new hot spot

guess who turned up in kuantan today. more people from kl. the beaches of this sleepy old town sure is luring you west siders. yes i was very surprised to see you today. but i'm so sorry i couldn't spend the whole day with you. it's just very bad timing. but the phototshoot at gelora was fun, my SLR skills can beat yours anytime!

it's taking the world by storm!!!

starting of as a sleazy pub dance, for the pleasure of men, poledancing has evolved into a respectable form of physical exercise. It is now all the rage for young women. A full body workout, it tones and developes muscle and increases flexibility as well as agility. It looks really tough. Check out Miss Australia Poledance 2006, she does wonders with one pole.

east side visiting

the last few days have been hectic like craaazy. with the girls down and with the driving all over kuantan. to the beach, to the mall, to the beach, to the mall, to a wedding. climb rocks, shop, eat, eat, get soaked in the rain, eat, trekk, eat...it was packed!!..and the food has been overwhelmingly awesome. all the celebratory dinners left us stuffed like pythons. yep everybody did great for their a-levels..woohoo!

i think everyone needs to recuperate

08/08/08

Happy birthday josephine darling!!!...

hope you have a blast in kl
yipeee!can't wait to see you girls tomorrow..!!

me and hwee yin attempted our unartistic hands at baking and cake decorating..and jo's relighting candles were like candles from hell. the flames just would not extinguish. it took all 5 of us to blow it out!!..only to have it relight.

he's back and he has graduated. the first among all of us. he has a pilot license, but no driver's. after alot of taunting about my driving, i tell him "You are in no position to comment". That's retorted with a " Oh but i can fly a plane". So fly to my house and pick me up everyday then :P. Okay, and you drive to UK.

Evolution

the theory states that from tiny simple structured creatures in the water, evolution took place leading to sea animals like fishes, frogs, whales. From the sea, legs grew and creatures slowly moved to land and became dinosaurs that grew so huge it led to their extinction. And then along came the apes, our ancestors. So we all originate from Africa. Slowly our forefathers spread to the rest of the world, evolving all along the way. Survival of the fittest led to the homo sapiens migrating to the rest of the world and conquering even the most hostile territories. We are the sole survivor of the homo species.

After that came the variations in looks. Weather was supposed to have influenced hair, skin and eye colour-the level of pigmentation according to the degree of sunniness. Thousands of years of living in different region has led to great differences in people from various countries. So we are continuously changing.

Mum's theory:

Thousands of years to come, the homo sapiens will be little balls with long extended fingers to hold a remote control and play games or type on a keyboard. That's the only direction we are moving in. Too bad we can never know.

Last night......

i tried my hand at pool, learning that i have tonnes of luck which totally makes up for the lack of skill. i had to sprint to and from the car because hannah decided to park in a rat infested spot where huge ugly rodents were running freely all over the place! i managed to spill my vodka all over the table and floor without even being tipsy, just clutzy. i sat at the bar and indulged myself, wolfing down yummy yummy chicken peratal courtesy of the girlfriend of the bartender. i met a bangladeshi who loves malaysia, speaks tamil and gets wasted after two beers. i was force fed by a drunk doctor (a he) who said 'let momma feed you', before pouring beer down my throat *horror*. i watched a she-man stand up her/himself as some dude groped her/his overflowing boobs. i happily let hannah get hit on by some older guy, ignoring her pleading looks and sharp pinches under the table. and then she got free salsa lessons on the packed dance floor, lol! last night was a hoot. kuantanites are just hillarious when intoxicated, with one proclaiming he is quarter of a decade old. i must say you have taken being young at heart to a whole new level mohan.

i'm closing down my old blog...and i'm reminiscing my emo days

Eclipse 07/04/2007

Somehow you creeped into my mind last night, reminding me of the time when all sunlight was blotted out, eclipsing me. When I was groping in darkness. How did you manage to do it? I didn't even know you when you came along. My little Gift or curse?

You drew me into your twisted little game. Your Sick, so very sick game. Where no champion would emerge, nobody victorious, only two losers left behind. Yet we played it. Wrong move.

We happily tangoed together, oblivious to the world around us. You painted me pictures of blue skies and summer days. Why? Why not acknowledge the truth? That the wind was carrying news of our newfound passion. The wind that blows into every nook and cranny. It was no longer our space, no longer our dance floor. We now had spectators flocking to fringe it, slowly encroaching our area. People who were too quick to pass judgements.

Little did you know, that harmless tango would turn into a deadly waltz. It made us prisoners, chained to the floor. Dancing the steps the world wanted to see. Unable to be ourselves, like puppets acting out a show. Thank god that production has ended. Out of two fools, you turn out to be the bigger one...

What I don't understand is...

----------------------------------Why did you do it?-------------------------

-------------------------------How could you do that?-----------------------

-----------------------------Where is your conscience?---------------------

----------------Why does emptiness lie between your ears?-------------

Now the darkness has passed me by. The bright rays of sun that pierce through the clouds illuminate two horns on your head. How could I have missed it? Shit happens

But at this very moment I am revelling in the warmth of the sun's rays. My blue skies and summer days are here, for real. I am high on life~...are you?

Tangled Me 01/05/2007

I feel like a fly caught in a spider's web. The more i struggle, the more I am engulfed by tangles. Everything around me is so confusing, complicated, alien and foreign, NEW but yet I feel right at home. Maybe because the liquid silk that makes this web is as strong as steel, yet as soft as snow. Its strength gives me a sense of security, and its touch, a feeling of comfort. Each new tangle heightens my senses...Making me daring and adventurous. But a web remains a web, holding me down.

Am i the one who spun the web and somehow managed to get caught in it? Or is it my past doings that has brought about this silvery web that entangles me. A web called karma...?

Whatever it is, this web has made me aware of something. Of lately, I have been holding back thoughts that I fear will hurt another. I should start speaking out the things that run through my mind. Sometimes its better to just lay things in the open, point out a friend's mistake. People learn from mistakes, but how can they if they are oblivious of it? My silence will only cause the mistakes to happen, over and over again...and they might find themselves in a spider's web...mesmerised by the glimmer & shimmer of the silky threads. Fooled by its beauty. Unaware of its endless tangles. Just like me.

what kyuem has done to us

i miss the times when we would all squeeze in the little rooms in college. we used to be like canned sardines with limbs piled all over each other just so nobody is left out on the gossip sessions. it used to be such a tight squeeze that it was even difficult to open the door of our illegal fridge. this is what college turns us into. needy things. creatures who can't be left alone. people with abandonment issues. beings who have to gayut on the phone eventhough at two opposite ends of the sea. damn i miss u guys.

I have given my brain a kick start today. And it's actually revving back to life!surprise surprise! On top of the many many hours of sleep, i have managed to be quite intellectually productive. I learnt some very simple phrases of spanish. No necessito ir al trabajo. That's my favourite.

i have started reading too. not just the newspapers (which is the only thing that tempts me out of bed every morning...only to be sorely disappointed)...Way of the Turtle has held me very captivated. I'm still trying to make sense of everything curtis faith talks about in this book. scalpers, speculators, traders, hedges..my my it's a whole new world to me. a world that i'm going to be thrown into, sooner or later.

ohh my dad says that i can use the new golf club pool...so quiero ir a la piscina!