Friday, February 27, 2009

Crazy girl vs Crazy Boy

crazy girl used up 600 free minutes and more in a month. crazy boy blew an ungodly amount of money on champagne in one night. (it is SO ungodly that i can't say how much)
...who trumps who..?
oh and i feel crippled without my phone, something like hanad without his car. it's time for March to come by.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

she's missing

alissa alissa, where art thou?

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

this is the end. maybe the new beginning.

to my past,

i am being cruel to be kind. my intention is not to hurt you, never ever will it be. i care for you too much. but for now, there is no other way. i am truly sorry.

to my present,

you have left me in a state of limbo. you swept me off my feet and then brought my world crashing down. you irreversibly shattered my believes into a million tiny pieces. your brutal honesty has left me raw and exposed. i wonder, where would i be now if i had never taken that glass of coke? your lilac mp3 player wouldn't be sitting on my shelf. the little pantry that has grown on my book rack would never have happened. would my choices be different? would my sleep still be sound and deep? the eye bags that have become a permanent feature on my face won't be there.

i have made my decision. *fingers crossed* let's see what the future holds.

xoxo

Sunday, February 22, 2009

hearbreaker.no just heartbroken.

this little heart of mine is capable of loving boundlessly. but sometimes, it just shouldn't. i have made choices, amidst all the chaos of fights on basketball courts, slipping whistles into coat pockets, nasi tomato on high stools and photo snapping frenzies with my loves. i have said goodbye, and let go as gracefully as possible. and it hurts so badly. this is me letting go. this is me trying to love again. wish me the very best.

Friday, February 20, 2009

The Horse Whisperer

it captivates me, it really does

Thursday, February 19, 2009

there's so much that i want to say, too much running through my mind. but words just fail me terribly today.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

i told him with confidence that i was testing the waters

but the truth is, i have no idea what i'm doing. i'm not sure if i have gingerly stuck a foot into the deep end or if i have plunged in, head first. i don't know. i just don't know. oh god.

busy-ness

just a month ago, i had no drive or motivation to roll out of bed. my days were filled with sitting at my table trying to consolidate last terms' lectures in preparation for the upcoming progress tests. endless episodes of greys anatomy and sex and the city were the joy and bane of my existence. the halls were so silent you could hear a pin drop (most people were home for the festive season). but now, now...
i don't have enough hours in a day. it has been craaazy. it's a race against time the second i 'm up last week we spent busy in preparation for the kpum-ukec debate competition. losing in the finals was rewarding enough for the effort put in. hy and i could afford to take the whole gang out to dinner on our winnings. *happiness*
this week, it starts all over again. i just woke up from a 4 hour nap to bayar hutang tidur. i'm trying to begin fresh.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

An Open book?

the stranger says that if he were to sketch a caricature of me, it would be

a little stick body at the bottom, with the rest of the paper filled with my over-sized head. i sure have managed to leave an impression.

Monday, February 9, 2009

don't ask

familiarity has an immensely powerful magnetic effect. i gravitate towards it, unwillingly.

reverie

sometimes i wonder if having faith in platonic is the same as believing in Utopia. as much as i want it to exist, deep down, i know it can never. reciprocating and happily ever after, now that's a different case. rare it may be, reality it is. men and women are just wired such.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

i got it, i got it!

finally

heart woes

i see them break as their worlds shatter. the alcohol will never drown your sorrows. it might numb the pain, but just for that fleeting moment. to be able to gracefully let go is a beautiful thing, but almost impossible to do. you must take this giant step forward, there is no other way.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

our kitchen party...it's been awhile

i trudged over to the kitchen on the other side and carried chair after chair over. it was my best efforts at being a good hostess. and guess what, everyone decided they would rather stand around all the seats that cluttered my tiny kitchen. it ended up being a very cramped cocktail-ish party(if you can consider kebabs and dr peppers as delectable finger food, that is)..oh and the rock music blaring over the speakers.
before they decided to vacate the chairs
the anal security guards broke up our little gathering soon after

we transformed my room into a hair saloon

the person who snips, the person who styles and colours and the the person who cleans up. jv and sap had a full blown hair dressing experience in the comfort of my little shoebox.


it snowed and the world took a break

as the gentle snowflakes fell gracefully all night, london was thickly blanketed in snowy white by morning. the icy roads caused most public transport to be halted, classes canceled and people stranded. a one day disruption of the tube services leads to an estimated 48 million pounds loss. with no buses and limited tubes running that day, ALOT of revenue was not generated. the worst snow this place has seen in 18 years.the brother, all the way from down under says "Hey, heard that all you londoners were running around like jakuns, because you lot have never seen that much snow in your life! Ha ha...the rest of the world saw it on tv..."well yeah, undeniable. instead of working, studying, filling our day with the normal routine, there were snow wars, rolling giant snowballs and building snow men. the little surprises life holds. :)

Monday, February 2, 2009

Manchester like never before

Hussaini hussaini, i can't believe you are the eldest of the bunch. 21, Sani man...!

to wake up to the crisp smell of frying anchovies is blissful happiness. to sit down to a round of nasi lemak, hot chocolate and teh o panas is blissful happiness. to laze around, enjoying the comfort of friends who have become family is blissful happiness. to throw on some clothes, make-up and not care about which place we wind up in because the company is all that matters, is blissful happiness. to light up a birthday cake as the skies turn white with the first snowflakes of the year is perfect blissful happiness. i hope you had a blast sani, we definitely did. happy birthday hun!the weekend casualties: an iphone (severely cracked screen), one ear-ring, a body bar stopper ball (rolled off somewhere sometime during the course of the night), one side of a brown glove, and a very wasted hussaini.